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The BQ That Wasn’t

I just arrived home from a really fun race weekend in Eugene. All in all, it was a great weekend full of getting to know new and old friends, eating at yummy new restaurants, and lots of girl talk. Unfortunately there wasn’t as much running as I had hoped but in the end, it wasn’t all for naught. I learned a lot about myself as a runner this weekend as well as earned even more respect for the marathon distance. I didn’t earn my BQ – I didn’t even finish a marathon – but it was definitely a weekend I won’t forget.
Pre-Race Festivities
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Friday morning I made my way to Eugene, prepared for a long travel day by myself. Asia was on an earlier flight with a different airline and I’d meet up with her and Page at the airport when I landed. Luckily I was reading a pretty awesome book (Gone Girl – highly recommend!) so the day went quickly. On the 2nd flight on a small plane to Eugene, I was seated next to an athletic looking woman with a foam roller in her bag so I immediately asked if she was running the race. Her name is Lora and I was right!
We quickly got to chatting about how we both were going for our BQ and shared our stories with each other for the next hour and a half of the flight. Turns out, I had just found her blog via Twitter just days before (yes we shared Twitter handles – the plane needed to go back to the terminal for maintenance check so we were able to turn on our phones and that’s when I made the connection). It also turned out that we were both on the same Google Group emails that a group of runner bloggers had created to keep track of the various meet-ups for the weekend. Small world!
Thinking About All the FAST People Who Have Run on This Track
Thinking About All the FAST People Who Have Run on This Track

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Once we arrived in Eugene, Page and Asia were waiting with the rental car and we gave Lora a ride to her hotel ( we were not strangers anymore!). We were all hungry so we headed straight to a vegan friendly restaurant that I had found on Yelp and dug into a big bowl of chips and salsa and delicious, healthy bowls full of brown rice, black beans, sweet potatoes, plantains and tempeh. Delish! Page and I washed it down with a beer and we had a great time getting to know each other better (Page and Asia had never met IRL). After dinner we headed to the University of Oregon track where legend Prefontaine himself used to run and where the Olympic trials are held. The track also served as the finish line for the marathon on Sunday. It was fun to see it and imagine ourselves achieving our goals there.
Pre Shakeout Run with Some Awesome Gals!
Pre Shakeout Run with Some Awesome Gals!
After a relaxing night on Friday, we woke up refreshed on Saturday and immediately headed out for a pre-arranged “shake out run” with a big group of fellow runners and bloggers (many of which are Oiselle ambassadors). I was blown away by how amazingly welcoming and friendly all of the bloggers are. It was really fun to meet people who I have only known via their Twitter handle or blogs. It was also awesome to meet even more great women who I didn’t know via their Twitter avatar previously. The shake out run felt fine on my legs – it was just an easy run.I stretched afterward for a bit (probably not as much as I would have had I been at home) and then after more chatting we all went our separate ways in search of food.
Shake it out!
Shake it out!
Post Shake Out Run
Post Shake Out Run
Vegan French Toast!
Vegan French Toast!

Asia, Page and I found a yummy all vegetarian/vegan restaurant that served breakfast. I was wooed by the promise of vegan french toast (although I ordered it with a side of eggs and a soy sausage so the breakfast wasn’t fully vegan) and the coffee was delicious. Post breakfast we headed back to the hotel for showers and more relaxing before heading to the expo.

The expo was small but well run. There was a banner prompting runners to send well wishes to the Boston Marathon and we all signed it. While at the expo we ran into even more of our blogger friends and also saw Lora from the plane ride as well. We went back to the room for more relaxing before heading out to a local vegan restaurant that had a simple marinara pasta on its menu for dinner. The meal came with vegan garlic bread and a yummy soup but unfortunately our pasta was stone cold. We awkwardly sent it back and started to notice some of the things we had read on the (4/5 star) yelp reviews – dirty floors, odd people. The pasta came back luke warm rather than cold but I ate it anyway. Page took hers back to the room with intentions of microwaving it later but never at it. #EugFail
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Silliness at the Expo
Silliness at the Expo
Photo With New Friends and a Pancake
Photo With New Friends and a Pancake
Cold Pasta in a Shady Restaurant? Perfect Pre-Race Dinner!
Cold Pasta in a Shady Restaurant? Perfect Pre-Race Dinner

After dinner we went back to Hayward field to get more pumped up about the race and we took a bunch of fun photos on the historic track and in front of the recently constructed finish line. We were back in our hotel room before 8 p.m. to get ready for the next day, relax and get in bed early. Once I got in bed, I got really nervous about the race and I had a hard time sleeping. My mind was racing and my heart was pounding and I just couldn’t get over the nerves. Eventually, I did and fell asleep and didn’t wake up until morning.

Hayward Field
Hayward Field

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Race morning went just as planned. First I opened the card that Mike had written to me to be opened on race morning. It gave me a boost and I also found myself wishing here was there. I ate cereal that I had brought from home with almond milk we got at Trader Joes and even drank the same type of coffee and creamer I always do thanks to a 711 being right across the street from our hotel (free entrainment from the drunk Everything seemed fine pre-race and my nerves never got as strong as they were the night before.
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After bathroom breaks, warm-up, etc, Asia and I found ourselves in the front of corral C, the largest of the five corrals. We stood slightly behind the pacer (who we had talked to at the expo and had told us the first mile is usually a bit slow due to the crowds but he picks it up for the 2nd mile and t hen runs even splits. We had decided we might start with him and then play it by ear), listened to the national ant hum nervously and soon we were off!
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The Race
It was incredibly crowded at the start. The most crowded start I’ve ever experienced at a race. And it seemed that despite being near the 3:35 pacer, no one was running fast. Our watches were telling us we were at times running in the high 9s. The pace group picked it up a bit through the first mile and used a downhill as momentum so my first mile ended up being just about on pace. It was really difficult for me to run anywhere next to Asia (we both had our individual plans but we had thought we’d at least stay together for the first few miles) and I kept trying to catch up to her but I’d get blocked or elbowed by someone. I finally got up near her about 3/4 of the way through the first mile and commented that we should have started at the back of the B corral to avoid all this craziness. I told her it was making me anxious. Mile 1 ticked off at 8:09 average – right on pace.
During Mile 2 the pacer started to really pick it up. My watch showed we were running in the mid to high 7s for quite a bit of it and I flipped the screen on my Garmin to the average pace for the lap and saw it was in the high 7s. I immediately scaled it back and started to fade away from Asia as she kept up with the pacer. My race plan had me going around 8:10 min/miles for the first 10 miles so I knew I had to back off from the pacer. It was stressing me out to keep up with the group and with Asia anyway so I just let myself fall off a bit. When the second mile clicked off was just a bit fast – 8:03. I consciously slowed down for the 3rd mile and kept my watch on the lap mode so I could see my average pace for that lap only, not my current pace. I felt good – it felt easy. I felt like I could maintain the pace for a long time. My breathing was easy. I was going to do it. Mile 3 -8:10. Perfect.
As soon as I started mile 4 my lap average pace showed I had actually slowed down to about a mid 8:20 pace. The pacer was getting farther ahead of me and I picked it up a bit. I looked for Asia, thinking she must have picked it up and passed the pacer by now and I didn’t see her. I told myself to focus on my run. Mile 4 was a 8:11 pace, but my average was still perfect – around 8:08 at this point.
Somewhere during the 5th mile (it was right before a short incline), I suddenly got a bit nauseous, my heart beat really fast, and my body was overcome with chills. Then an exhaustion set over me which I could feel most prominently in my arms. I suddenly went from easy running to feel like I’d hit the wall. It felt like I was on mile 22 of the marathon, not 4 or 5. I panicked a bit – wondering if I was having a heart attack or something. I wondered if this was how people felt before they died in marathons (a little dramatic but I honestly was so confused). I slowed way down. My pace dropped, I tried to catch my breath. I chugged up the hill and enjoyed the slight decline on the other side. I thought maybe my blood sugar had suddenly dropped so I took a Gu even though it wasn’t time (this makes me sure that this all happened before 40 minutes when I was scheduled to take the Gu). It didn’t help.
My legs felt heavy. My breathing was hard. I was running high 8/low 9 min miles and I felt like I was sprinting. It was bizarre and scary. I passed by the first medical station because I knew stopping meant I was pulling out of the race. I wasn’t ready to pull out yet. I needed to see if it would go away. I kept running. It kept feeling hard. I started getting passed by basically everyone. I was no longer running the right pace. I let myself run like this for another mile. I watched my average pace start to drop. I cringed as I ran over the 10k timing mat, knowing people were tracking me and would wonder why I slowed down. I felt exhausted. I slowed more.
My mind started to go crazy. WHAT WAS HAPPENING!? How could this happen? My dreams were being crushed and I felt I had no control over it. I knew I couldn’t pick up the pace and maintain it for 26 miles. I knew that my BQ dreams were over. I didn’t feel like running 1 more mile, let alone 20. I decided I would stop when I saw a medical tent. I knew that the first 9 or 10 miles of the race was a loop just south of the campus and then it headed north, so I knew we were heading back to the finish line. I kept looking for a medical tent so I could make sure I was ok. I stopped and asked a volunteer where the next one was. He didn’t know. I kept going. I probably looked miserable because I was. I knew my race was done but I didn’t want to walk. I just slowly jogged, silently crying as I was passed, as my average pace got slower and slower. My mind started racing with thoughts about which race I would try to run next. If I dropped out now, I knew that given that nothing was seriously wrong with me, I could race again soon.
I turned the corner close to the mile 8 marker and saw a pretty significant hill. I knew that it was time to walk. I looked to my left and saw a building with an empty parking lot. I veered to the side and immediately started to cry. Not cute tears, huge, aching, sobs. I sat on the curb and bawled my eyes out into my hands. A man came over and asked if I needed help. I asked him where the medical tent was and he said it was probably up near mile 8. I thanked him and kept crying. Then I called Mike who of course was shocked to hear from me. I told him everything and cried. I then texted my coach to tell him what had happened and we started to brainstorm future races.
After composing myself, I took off my bib and shoved it into the belt I use to carry my phone. That was the worst part. I’ve never dropped out of a race and this DNF came at the worst time. I walked back to the finish line, which was luckily only about a mile away. I was shivering because it was cold (yes perfect race weather!) and I texted Page, knowing she probably was finishing the half by now. I looked for medical and never saw it. By then I was feeling just fine and didn’t think I needed to get checked out. I went to gear check and soon realized Page must still be in the finishers area so I waited there for her. I saw some of the girls that I had met the day before and I tried to pretend I didn’t see them because I didn’t want to break down again. When I saw Page I couldn’t hold back the tears and she hugged me and comforted me.
I tried to look on the bright side. At least I dropped out when I did and didn’t have to wait 3 weeks to fully recover from the race. At least it happened early on. I guess. You lose some, you win some, I told myself. Everyone has a bad race, and I was due for mine. I’ve PRed at every single race I’ve ever done except one. I’ve been lucky and today wasn’t my day.
Asia About to BQ!!!
Asia About to BQ!!!
It was so awesome to go watch the marathon finishers come in. Page and I cheered on all the finishers from about 2:55-3:35 and it was an inspiring way to wrap up an emotional morning. The best part was seeing Asia coming down the street, knowing that she had achieved her goal of qualifying for Boston. At least if I didn’t do it, I knew my training partner did. After the race we ate a delicious meal and celebrated with beer then relaxed and showered before meeting up at Ninkasi Brewing for an after party. Lora (from the plane ride) and several other bloggers/runners were there and it was fun to hear everyone’s race stories. Some girls achieved their goals, others, like me did not, but everyone was still in good spirits and it was a fun afternoon of drinking good beer in the sun.
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Figuring Out What Happened
I tried working though all the possibilities of why something like this could have happened. At first I considered the shady pasta I ate the night before from the dirty cafe. I considered the fact that I forgot to take my birth control on Saturday night so I took it Sunday morning instead (which I never do). I thought of everything I could. Only later did I realize after talking to some friends who have had them and doing some research, that I think I had a panic attack. I’ve never had one mine my life but the description seemed to fit. In several articles it compared the way your body feels after panic attack to having just completed a marathon. Panic attacks wipe your energy out. I think I panicked for a variety of reasons – most monumentally the pressure I’ve put on myself for this race. I’ve been training for 7 months for one goal. I’ve told everyone I know (and many I don’t know who read this blog!) that I’m going to BQ. Being around all the running friends that weekend put additional pressure – many others were trying to BQ and they all knew I was going for it. I had told myself that Eugene was my one and only chance to qualify for the 2014 Boston Marathon because I would be busy wedding planning after this.ย  Lots of pressure on one race.
The crowded corrals didn’t help. The birth control probably didn’t help either (hormonal changes can affect panic attacks). The large coffee I drank contributed as well I’m sure. It was the perfect storm and unfortunately it hit at the wrong time. But at the end of the day, it happened and I’m moving on. I’m not letting this training go to waste – I will be running another marathon soon. Now that I think I have a better understanding of what happened I hope I can control things a bit better so that it never happens again. Less pressure, more fun. Start at the front of the corral and NEVER run with a pace group (too crowded, too many people jockeying for position). Control what I can and know that no matter what happens, I should be proud.

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  1. Courtney

    April 29, 2013 at 11:28 pm

    oh no! i am so sorry to hear about your race. i’m glad you are okay. that sounds really scary!! having experienced a DNF a few months ago i know that nothing anybody can say will make it feel better. just know that it happens. it hurts. there are tears. we come back from it stronger than before and surprise ourselves with the strength we gain.

    other than the race it sounds like you had an incredible weekend!

    i’m really glad i got the chance to meet you. i know in my heart the next marathon recap you write will be a BQ! use this experience to fuel that fire!

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    • FitnessFatale

      April 29, 2013 at 11:38 pm

      Thank you! That definitely makes me feel better. It was so great meeting you too! I hope there are more fun race weekends like this ahead where we will meet again ๐Ÿ™‚

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  2. Asia

    April 30, 2013 at 12:06 am

    I know it wasn’t easy for you to drop out like that, but I am SO PROUD OF YOU for listening to your body and learning from this experience. You are going to have a great day when you go out there again, and I know you will be able to stay calm and enjoy the race. Thanks for cheering me on at the finish despite everything. It means a lot. Love you!

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  3. Abby @ Change of Pace

    April 30, 2013 at 12:25 am

    I’m so sorry to hear about your race experience, Nicole. You’re right- you should be proud no matter what happens. And, I give you serious props for stopping so you can put your training to good use at an upcoming marathon instead of having to recover.
    Sounds like a really fun weekend otherwise! I know you’ll get your BQ one day soon!

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    • FitnessFatale

      April 30, 2013 at 12:38 am

      Thank you! I know I will get it!!! ๐Ÿ™‚

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  4. outside time

    April 30, 2013 at 1:14 am

    When I was reading your description of what happened, I was thinking that it sounded like a panic attack. I had one in 2007 when I was late for work one day (obviously, there is way more to the story than that!). It was terrifying and I’d never experienced anything like it before. I was really embarrassed, but after that, and after regaining some perspective, the pressure just kind of released.

    You’ve earned that BQ and you’ll get it soon <3

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  5. Erin

    April 30, 2013 at 2:05 am

    Panic attacks are just life’s little reminders that we’re probably focusing on the wrong things. Be proud of what you accomplished to get you to that race day and then just have fun doing what you love. You can do it, I believe in you!

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    • FitnessFatale

      April 30, 2013 at 2:19 am

      Aww thank you friend!!! True – time to just focus on the joy of running and not put so much pressure!!It will happen naturally.

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    • FitnessFatale

      April 30, 2013 at 2:54 am

      Thank you friend!

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  6. Tara

    April 30, 2013 at 2:32 am

    Hey it’s Tara C. from Dailymiles …You and I had very similar experience at Eugene, except my “bonk” was at mile 15. All of a sudden my legs were just heavy, my body tired, my pep GONE!! My pace slowed from 8:20’s to 8:30’s, and by 21 to 9’s, 9:30’s. I cried, with every walk/stop to stretch. Why was my body betraying me today, after 2 weeks ago I ran 22 miles at 8:23 pace, and my 20 miler at 8:17??!! I passed a med area, around mile ~18 maybe, thought about stopping, ran passed it, stopped, and turned around to it, but then convinced myself to keep going, so I turned back around.
    I walked, and jogged until mile 23 crying off and on, esp when the 3:45 pace group finally passed me. Around mile 22.5 my heart began to beat super fast, and I began to panic. I took my pulse, and convinced myself it was skipping a beat. I walked to mile 23 and I stopped at a med table and called my boyfriend to come get me(I also suffer from panic attacks)…but he convinced me to try to get to 24, and if I still hurt and couldn’t go anymore he’d come get me. So I sniffled through my cries, stood up from the med table (I sat there prob 10 mins) and turned off my garmin and ran in to finish. I crossed the finish at 4:08, and just cried, cried, cried from the pain and the disappointment.
    Fast forward to today, the disappointment is still there, but we have other races to attack. Me personally, I am eyeing CIM in Dec to give me a solid 4 months off….I know you and I have a fast marathon in us. It WILL happen for us!! Yesterday wasn’t our day, but we’ll get our day! and it will be AMAZING!! ๐Ÿ™‚

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    • FitnessFatale

      April 30, 2013 at 2:54 am

      Wow I’m so sorry to hear that!!! What a weird day for both of us. I know we will do it too! It wasn’t our day but it will come! The marathon is a crazy beast…. not every attempt is going to be successful but that’s why it’s such a big deal to qualify for Boston and to even finish a marathon! Keep me posted on what race you end up deciding to do! I’ve heard CIM is great!

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      • Tara

        April 30, 2013 at 5:54 pm

        Will do! and can’t wait to read what race you will run next! ๐Ÿ™‚

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  7. Amanda

    April 30, 2013 at 2:59 am

    I have issues with anxiety and running too. Both marathon’s I’ve run my stomach has been my downfall and I’ve realized that’s its caused by the anxiety of putting so much pressure on myself. Haven’t really figured out the answer but you’re not alone ๐Ÿ™‚

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  8. Kari de Jong @ theimazingrace.blogspot.com

    April 30, 2013 at 3:29 am

    I am so glad to see you are okay! I was tracking you and so confused when no times came up after 10k! Amazing job shaking off the loss and moving forward; also very impressive making the difficult decision to drop out early enough that you can try again!

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    • FitnessFatale

      April 30, 2013 at 3:39 am

      Aw yeah my dad also called me after and was like “did your timing chip break!?” Oops… Thank you for tracking me and checking on me!

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  9. Monika

    April 30, 2013 at 3:30 am

    Its heartbreaking to read this! But I know that your BQ is right around the corner. When I ran RNR SD a few years ago I ‘knew’ it was going to be my race where I finally broke 4 hours. I had trained harder than before and had run a few solid 20 milers faster than my goal pace. Come race day though I started to feel bad around mile 3.. and just about gave up by mile 8. I kept run/walking through the race though and cried several times along the way, but decided to just plug along to the end. I ended up finishing closer to 5 hours than 4, and each time I read my race recap after the race (even after having beat 4 hours) it made me cry thinking about the heartbreak, frustration, and disappointment that I felt that day and for a while after. BUT… it is what makes the victories so sweet. I think part of what makes marathons so rewarding is that each race it its own unique challenge. Even after running a ton of marathons I still worry at the start line of each race if I will be able to get to the finish. Regardless of the quality of my training. anyways, sorry for the novel. Good luck at OC! I ran that in 2010. Its a beautiful course up to the half but then its pretty desolate for the second half. Prepare yourself for the course support to drop down to about nothing for the second part. That was what was a bit shocking to me. I think something like 3/4 of people run the half marathon so the first and second half experiences are totally different. Right when I split from the half runners I thought I was going the wrong way because it was just me running down the block! anyways I will be thinking of you this weekend. BUmmed you’ll miss the GOTR 5k! ๐Ÿ™

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    • FitnessFatale

      April 30, 2013 at 3:40 am

      Aww thank you! Bad races definitely happen! Hearing so many people going through similar things makes me feel better – although I really wish none of us had these stories to tell! Only makes us stronger though right!?

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  10. Emily

    April 30, 2013 at 3:41 am

    Oh, man. I’m so sorry. I know this is the ultimate bummer. You’ve got this, though. You’re strong, motivated, and fast, and you have ’til September! Get out there and just have faith!

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  11. Sarah OUaL

    April 30, 2013 at 4:46 am

    1) I’m sorry (again) it wasn’t your dream race 2) I’m glad we met 3) I’ll be at OC and will hopefully get to see you cap off your BQ journey there!

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    • FitnessFatale

      April 30, 2013 at 3:22 pm

      I’m glad we met too! I’ll look for you out there! ๐Ÿ™‚

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  12. Ty (SeekingBostonMarathon)

    April 30, 2013 at 3:20 pm

    Wow! I literally felt for you as I read this. It sounds like you trained hard and were ready to go, but some cruel fate intervened. I like the way you think though in that even during your race, you were already thinking that not running the whole race, your body will be ready to race another mary soon. I believe half the battle of getting a BQ is wanting it enough to do what it takes to get it. You seem to have that! Best of luck in your next one!

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  13. Logan

    April 30, 2013 at 4:21 pm

    Bummer you had a panic attack! Really good summary of your race though. Having a race not go your way sucks for sure but you learned more about your body this way than had the race gone really good. I am sure you will BQ in your next attempt.

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    • FitnessFatale

      May 1, 2013 at 6:23 pm

      I agree – it was a valuable learning lesson. I think it’s probably good for every runner to have at least one “bad race” to remember and keep them grounded! Or at least I tell myself that ๐Ÿ™‚

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  14. Helen

    April 30, 2013 at 4:56 pm

    So sorry your race didn’t go as planned. Whenever something bad happens, I turn to my favorite Mom quote: “Things have a way of working out for the best, even if it doesn’t seem like it at the time”

    Glad you don’t have to take time off to recover from the full distance. Looking forward to reading about your BQ soon.

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    • FitnessFatale

      May 1, 2013 at 6:23 pm

      Agreed – there will be a silver lining ๐Ÿ™‚ Thank you!

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  15. Robyn

    April 30, 2013 at 5:43 pm

    Sorry to hear about your race Nicole, that’s a big bummer. It sounds like you’re definitely prepared and ready for that BQ…it just wasn’t your day. It happens. But I think your decision to drop out was definitely a good one. As you said, now you won’t need to recover and I’m sure you’ll find a back-up race in no time! Excited to hear how your plans unfold.

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    • FitnessFatale

      May 1, 2013 at 6:22 pm

      Thank you!

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  16. Kate

    April 30, 2013 at 6:22 pm

    I’m so sorry your race didn’t go as you’d hoped, but I’m so glad it was nothing serious. You are still an inspiration!

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    • FitnessFatale

      April 30, 2013 at 8:44 pm

      Thank you cousin! Love you ๐Ÿ™‚

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  17. Page

    May 1, 2013 at 12:54 am

    “It’s not what happens to you, but how you handle it.” Right?!

    I’m still so bummed for you that it didn’t happen at Eugene, but the good news is that I KNOW it WILL happen for you! You have every right to be upset, but I know that you’ll pick yourself up and demolish that goal VERY SOON!

    I loved every minute of our weekend and I’ll be cheering for you this week!

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  18. Kelly

    May 1, 2013 at 6:20 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear things didn’t go as planned! I too thought maybe your chip was broken. I’ve gotten pretty bad race anxiety in the past due to pressure, so I feel for you! Just know that you would be an inspiration and I’d still follow your blog whether you get your BQ this year or in 10 years! Sending you happy, ultra low-pressure vibes from Indiana!

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    • FitnessFatale

      May 1, 2013 at 6:22 pm

      Awww thank you! That means so much!! ๐Ÿ™‚ I love the low-pressure vibes!

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  19. Meghan

    May 1, 2013 at 8:52 pm

    Panic attacks are THE WORST. I’ve never had one during a race, but I can imagine how terrifying that would be.

    I had one during a class in college (I was just sitting there! Not moving, or talking!) and I actually thought I was about to die. Caffeine, lack of sleep, and general stress contributed to mine.

    It may help to talk to a professional about this. After the first instance, I kept feeling panicky in that same class until I talked to someone and got some strategies for avoiding an attack.

    Good luck with this! I hope your next race goes better!

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  20. Danielle

    May 1, 2013 at 8:57 pm

    As I was reading this, I was thinking “she definitely had a panic attack.” I’ve been there (never during a race) but it is a scary thing and I understand why you would DNF this. I’m glad you figured out the source, it seems like you have put a LOT of pressure on yourself to BQ. Maybe after this training season, consider some “fun runs” or even some trail races. I ran a trail marathon with no real goal time this past weekend, and it was one of the most fun marathons I’ve ever run. Hope you get that BQ soon ๐Ÿ™‚

    -Danielle @Trails & Cocktails

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    • FitnessFatale

      May 1, 2013 at 9:30 pm

      Wow crazy how common it is! I really had no idea at the time since I hadn’t ever had one but now it seems like it was definitely the case. I need more yoga in my life! Definitely time for some R&R and focus on non-crazy goals for a bit.

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  21. Paulette

    May 8, 2013 at 4:14 am

    Thanks for sharing this. I’m hypoglycemic and have a really hard time with blood sugar crashes sometimes during running, and what you wrote is almost exactly what I experience (except my legs usually feel tired, not arms so much.) Even if yours was a panic attack and not what mine is, the description really hit home. It’s really scary, especially when you feel like your heart beat suddenly gets really hard/fast/skips beats. I usually end up walking some and killing my pace because I freak out. I hope you never experience it again, and good luck with the BQ. You’ll get it! ๐Ÿ™‚

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  22. LizzieRun

    May 13, 2013 at 3:30 pm

    Hey there! I found your blog through Once Upon a Lime’s Blog just today actually. I have experienced anxiety/panic attacks in the past (not race related) and also dropped blood sugar during a triathlon and it is scary! It feels just like you were describing.
    I think you were right about the coffee and the pressure because I was feeling all the same things for that particular race/triathlon.

    I have learned to deal with the anxiety attacks by doing breathing exercises and Yoga.

    I hope you get your BQ soon best of luck!

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    • FitnessFatale

      May 13, 2013 at 4:26 pm

      Thank you! It helps to hear that others have experienced the same thing.

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  23. MARISSA W

    July 5, 2013 at 3:51 pm

    eek, well i’m sure you made the right choice and hope you get to go back and kick that courses butt next year?! it was a perfect race weekend but like you said we all win some, we all lose some and it sounds like you didn’t let it beat you down for very long at all! ๐Ÿ™‚

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