Last Saturday I had the opportunity to not only hear Tony Horton, creator of P90X and many other spectacular programs, speak, but I also got to meet him. It was a pretty exciting day and I really enjoyed myself. Tony came out to San Diego for the San Diego Super Saturday event, a quarterly event held for Beachbody coaches. I wasn’t sure how much he would actually speak or be involved, but I was happy when he spent three hours with us!
We learned a lot about Tony and during the Q&A I had to ask him – was P90X scripted or was did it come straight from his brain out his mouth? He confirmed, as I suspected that it was not scripted and was all Tony! Obviously they had to make some edits, but “like a pterodactyl backing out of trouble” was all him.
I don’t have time to go into all the details of his visit, but after the Q&A we had time for photos before the group workout. The workout was 22 Hard Corps inspired and really fun! Ironically, the biggest “ah-ha” moment I had on Saturday was at the VERY end of the workout. A lot of people had left becuase he had gone 45 minutes over time, but I stayed til the end. And it was worth it.
As he does in all his P90X yoga workouts, we ended with “Oms.” Obviously not everyone feels comfortable letting out a giant “Om” in a room full of strangers. If I’m honest, it makes me uncomfortable even doing it in my living room alone or with Mike. Tony was disappointed in our first attempt at letting it out and encouraged (ok demanded) we let it all out. After another half-hearted attempted (thought better than our first), he said “You know why I’m as successful as I am?!? BECAUSE I DON’T CARE!” He clarified – he does care about certain things like family, friends, etc. but he doesn’t care about what PEOPLE THINK. He isn’t afraid. He takes risks. He lets loose. He has a crazy personality and he isn’t afraid to show it – and you know what? He’s right. His success and fame is largely based on the fact that he pushes the envelope and doesn’t think about what people think is “normal.” He does his thing.
So did I let everything I had out for that final Om? No, I actually didn’t. I hate to say it, but I didn’t. I gave it more than I would have without his pep talk, but I still held back. Why?! What was I afraid of? What my teammates and strangers thought of me? It made me think. Am I doing the same thing in other areas of my life? I am generally a confident person, but am I holding back in many areas of my life because of fear?
I’ve set some big goals for myself this year, one of which I shared on this blog – to PR in the marathon. That was a big goal and it means not caring what people think if I fail. The question I’m pondering and that I ask you to think about to: What are you holding back becuase of fear of what people think? What would you try to do if no one would ever know if you failed?